postpartum/ life update

To this day I still can’t believe I’m a mom sometimes, it’s so crazy to me how my life has completely changed and it has really been for the better. Delilah has changed my life in so many ways which I’ll get to in a little but she is now 5 months!!!! Like how?! Time is flying and I love seeing her personality more (Bryant says she has my attitude) she smiles all the time and I have been lucky enough to be home with her for this long and not have to go back to work right away. It’s been a while since I last posted and I always want to kick myself in the butt for always taking these long breaks but I’m back so I’m here to share all of my updates since having the baby.

The number one question I ALWAYS get is: How do you find the time to do it all?!

My answer is simple JUST.GET.SHIT.DONE! Sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy but I work best under pressure and having a million things on my plate. Like right now I’m writing this blog post and I have the baby next to me drinking her bottle. I find the time to get things done when the baby is occupied, if I have the help of a family member or even when Bryant is here because he’s very hands on. If you have the help, TAKE IT!

I also get tons of comments from people saying that I’m their motivation which truly makes me so happy because I know I’m influencing someone in a positive way! My biggest thing when I became a mom was to show that all things are possible. I love going to the gym, it’s a part of my everyday life, now don’t get me wrong, there are days I’m not feeling it and sometimes I do miss a day or two but for the most part I have become very disciplined to get things done.

I will admit, before having the baby I was soooo LAZY! I would get things done but I had all of the time in the world and knowing that, I would always procrastinate and I remember waking up early but not getting out of bed til like 10-11 am and just watching so much tv! I hated that feeling but I wasn’t doing anything to change that and as much as I wanted a routine, I didn’t have a reason to push myself. As cheesy as it may sound but now that I have Delilah, I’m up by 6:30 am and it feels so much better!

Now that I have my routine down with Delilah, it has also smoothed things down by A LOT. I remember when I first had her and so many moms on Instagram would reach out and say, “it gets better” and I would think to myself when?! The first couple of months were difficult for me because Delilah experienced colic so she was up most nights, nothing would comfort her and she would cry at the top of her lungs and sounded like she was in so much pain and I felt so helpless. I probably made it look easy on social media but I remember feeling anxious when the night was approaching because it was like clockwork that she would start crying around 9-10 pm. Once Delilah was 2 1/2 month old, she finally started sleeping through the night and her colic started going away which was such a relief.

I didn’t experience postpartum depression but whenever I did feel sad or was having an off day, I would literally tell myself all of the positive things going on in my life and that if today was a rough day, tomorrow would be a brand new day and that it would be a good day! I also had tons of help from family members, friends and Bryant! I have to say this because sometimes I feel like he doesn’t get enough credit but he helped me out so much in the beginning emotionally and physically (I’m a cry baby) he would always cheer me on and say that I’m doing a great job, I’m a great mother etc. He would work a 12 hr shift and still come home and take over to give me a little break, or when we had those long nights and he had work the next morning he would still be up with me and I really appreciate him for that because it showed me a different side and that he’s not a selfish person!

Things are soooo much easier now, Delilah sleeps through the night, she’s a happy baby and we will be introducing solids in a couple of weeks so I’m excited to experience that with her! I bring her along everywhere I go, even when I’m out shooting content and she loves it. So many fun things are coming up and I’m excited for the holidays because it will be our first year celebrating it as a family so I can’t wait to start new traditions!

I promise I will stay on top of my blog and post at least once a week! If there’s any topics you guys want me to dive into just let me know, I love sharing my experiences especially as a new mother.

my labor story- Easter Sunday 2019

OMG!!! I can’t believe my baby girl Delilah is here and made it safe into this world. She was born at 37 weeks on Easter Sunday and I have to say, I still find myself thinking this is all a dream- I am a mother now!

Lots of you have been asking me on Instagram to share my labor story so I’m here to get into all of the juicy details…

So the day before Easter, I was perfectly fine with my hair and makeup done ready to enjoy the day. That whole week Bryant and I kept saying how Delilah could be here at any moment which is something I was excited but nervous because I still had a couple of things to get ready before her arrival. So anyway, that Saturday Bryant and I went over to my parents house for a bbq, now you all know how much I love food! LOL

So we went to hang out, watch movies and spend time with my family and I had some bomb ass chicken straight off the grill with rice, salad and some horchata to go with it so I was basically in heaven! A couple of hours later we grilled some hot dogs which I have to mention, I HATE hot dogs but you know those weird pregnancy cravings make you eat and want things you would’ve said no to before but here I was eating two hot dogs, enjoying life! I had some ice cream afterwards and then I started feeling nauseous which again I have to mention, I didn’t vomit once throughout my pregnancy so this was definitely a weird sign (blame the hot dogs). By this time it was around 10 pm but I just remember having to go pee about every half hour or so and my stomach felt heavy and uncomfortable either standing or sitting down.

I told Bryant it was time to go home because I just wanted to be in my own bed resting, now by this time it was around 11 pm and I remember getting ready for bed but feeling a huge discomfort and the possibility of vomiting at any moment. I tried going to sleep and nothing was working and by midnight I just started vomiting like crazy!!!! Again, blame the hot dogs! LOL I felt so disgusted because I was so sure it had to be the hot dogs that gave me an upset stomach. I kept trying to go to bed and about every hour I would wake up and go straight to the bathroom to vomit some more, I know TMI!!

The vomiting lasted all night and I didn’t seem to get any better, it also doesn’t help that you can’t take any medicine when being pregnant so around 5 am, I threw up again and told Bryant to take me to the emergency room because I thought it was food poisoning. So here we go, on our way to the hospital- I’m grumpy AF from lack of sleep and just wanting to figure out what was wrong. We get there and right away they hook me onto the monitors to see if I’m contracting and how the baby is doing. So I was already having contractions ever 2-3 minutes which I didn’t really feel I think because I was so focused on vomiting that I didn’t feel any pain (it honestly just feels like period cramps, nothing to die over in my opinion) and as they were monitoring the baby, we were waiting for my doctor to come in and as soon as she came in she said the baby’s heart rate is dropping so we have to do an emergency c section RIGHT NOW!

Like HOLD UP, WHAT?????? I thought they were honestly going to send me back home and tell me that it was probably what I had to eat and that it would soon be over. Bryant and I looked at each other like “Damn, it’s happening now!!” So they rush me to another room to prep for surgery and I’m rushing Bryant to call my Mom, by this time it was around 6 am I believe. We go into the operating room and the last thing I remember is shaking because it was so cold inside and just praying that everything would be okay. I was completely out and next thing, I’m waking up and I hear my baby crying in the background and I look over and Bryant is there holding her and him just saying, “everything is okay, she’s a healthy baby.” My sweet Delilah was born April 21, 2019, a strong and healthy beautiful baby.

My original plan was to have a natural birth but things don’t always go as planned and I was completely okay with that as long as my baby came into this world safe. You have to go with the flow and being a mom in such a short amount of time, I’ve learned so much and I know I will continue to learn more each day and that’s the beauty of it all. I didn’t get the epidural so now I’m just home resting and trying to recover from the surgery.

I want to say THANK YOU to my friends and family for being there and showing so much support in my time of need. The amount of love that Delilah has been getting is so beautiful to see, she’s my baby girl and I love her so much.

To all my expecting mamas out there, go with the flow and things will happen how they’re supposed to. I can’t wait for this new journey ahead and it’s only the beginning.